It's driving me insane not knowing whether or not Edward turns Bella. I can't take it anymore. AHHHHHHHH
I have to know and I have to know now!!!!!! This is soooo unfair. I can't wait till august. ARE YOU CRAZY? And december? forget that I might have a stroke by then. but i'll live. it's a good thing i know CPR. ;p 

anyway. if you haven't guessed then I can't wait. haha. 

GO TEAM EDWARD!!!


jacob is a butt.

So my mom dropped me off an hour before i had to be at the library (aka an hour before they opened) so I had a lot of time on my hands to read and to think. mostly i just read from my new favorite series by Stephenie Meyer but the book also made me think about my life and my issues. I wished that I could be more like Bella. her life seemed to have something always happening. whether it be dangerous or even fatal. i wish my life was a little more exciting. it's getting there but not to murderous or vampiric proportions. i have a little more of a social life now and I can't wait to go to the movie of Twilight with my friends Renee and Shannon from work. They will be in college but they're coming back because of winter break and we're all going together the day of it's first showing. I hope that the movie theater in town will have a showing there but i doubt it. all the good movies play over in zville. i can't wait to get a car so i can go over there whenever...but i'm getting off track. i love my life and i love the way it's going right now. i have good friends and a job. i'm a senior in high school now and that means only one year left. whoo-hoo. i'm excited but at the same time i'm scared. it terrifies me to finally be out on my own and to have to fend for myself. the real world is a scary place and i don't think i'm ready for it.